you need to live now. the true nature of reality is that there is no past or future, there is just the eternal present moment. you may have loved 'how it used to be' and you may truly believe that now is insufferable to live in, that you need to go for whatever reason; but the damaging moments you have seen will be alleviated by love and beauty. you will not live forever. your life is finite and you need to live it while you can, please. live and live until the lights blink out. have a good afternoon

love, mars